Since You’ve Been Gone I’ve Been Standing Tall Without You….

so last night was really memorable for me… Darnell texted me saying he needed me again. (he got a ticket wants me to help him out if he doesnt pay it by this week hes going to have a warrant). He then went on with his whole calling me “hun” and then i was like oh mann.. here we go…. and yeah it was 1AM and he wanted to see me. i was like in my head nothing good can come out of it. I mean i know if i went and saw him i would be happy and then something would go down and then start back to square 1. I actually turned him down.. i was surprised i did… usually i’m like OKAY get my ass ready n stuff but this time I dunno i felt like i wasn’t being fair to megelle. I know i’m not his girlfriend but i wouldnt want him talking to some other girl and doing shit with her. I dunno. I kinda regret not seeing darnell in a way because I think i just needed to talk to him about it but then again i know if i had gone then I would of done something with him like always… I’m really proud of myself in a way…

Also, megelle told me he liked me and wanted to be my boyfriend… and wanted us to work out just that he wanted to see me more and see things where they would go.. he told me “it would be an honor to your B/F…” I honestly think hes amazing as fuck. I know hes had a BAD past a really bad one. I usually wouldnt consider a guy if he had a past like him but he makes up for it i know that hes changed. he shows me that and I love it.

So I leave you with this…

Since you’ve been gone I’ve been standing tall without you…