L.O.V.E.

wow i haven’t wrote in this thing for a LONG time LOL.

first off please don’t judge. I’m sorry if you don’t know me personally meaning you’ve actually hung out with me for at least 2 years please refrain from saying stupid idiotic comments or anything

about 8 months ago i would have never thought ‘the dude’ (that was Megelle’s code name i use to use on my twitter before we dated) I can’t stress how much I’ve learned about him, life, and myself in these 8 months. I was the type of girl that really did have no self confidence at all even though everyone knew me n such. In relationships I couldn’t accept/admit my mistakes or say sorry. With him I can by myself I don’t gotta be this person that I’m not like I was with the rest. He loves me for me and accepts all my faults, which are a lot because we talk about them all the time. He has though said I have made BIG improvements me not getting mad, me admitting my mistakes, and being independent.

- we’ve been through ups and downs I remember there was a period of time where it was about 1/2 month to 1 month that we just kept constantly arguing. I’m just happy we worked it out and made us stronger in the end. This relationship has taught me so much about myself and relationships with other people in general. I was talking to megelle the other day about memories we had before we dated. where i use to wait up to talk to him at 238 am when he got off at work and when he use to fall asleep on me and i use to text him “good night sleepy head.” Or when he found out about my love of computers while he was trying to fix his dad’s computer. The best memory though is the time i went up to visit him

- the very first time i only saw him for 15 minutes but best 15 min ever. We had our first kiss and I was super duper shy I never get like that. I remember he was trying to talk to me but i kept being all quiet. -haha

Looking back at it all the constant struggles, problems, n such it was all worth it because I love him and I can’t imagine being with anyone else.

Dedication to my babii <3

What can i say…

hes my Everything…

there’s no words to describe how he makes me feel when I’m with him <3 He’s honestly the best ever boyfriend. He makes me feel like the greatest. :) I know he’s the one for me :) i know it my heart I’ve never been so sure of something in my life. He’s my rock when i need him hes my superman hes my everything I’m glad he’s in my life. I know sometimes we got it rocky but in the end it helps me and him. I wanna be his wife and be happy. I know hes the one for me what can i say hes the greatest :) he makes my life worth living. plus he plays baseball and he wears those fitted’s haha ;) but anyways hes the greatest <3 050809 forever and ever :) Megelle + Cheryl = 4ver in Love <3

uh yeah :)

Today even though it was a busy busy day went pretty good. i woke up tired as usual. hmm went to school my flash drive was working oh goody i hate macs they suckkkkkk! but yeah i had to leave early cause i promised my mom i had to take my litte sister to her work for an appt :) oh yes im a good sister ahaha but yeah it was hella hot :( i didnt wanted to turn the A/C cause my gas was running low.. LOL but yeah my mom was cheery and was like THANKS SO MUCH! lol webcammed with megelle havent seen him in 2 weeks cause we’ve both been busy =/ damn i need a vacation seriously.

Twitter Craze

I’ve noticed Twitter has been getting really glitchy lately it’s really started to annoy me. Facebook as well with the friend feed now….other than that ive been winning things left and right! unfourtantely i still want a vacation like a real vacation that i can get away and stuff. class has started… I couldn’t really get into any classes. oh well next semester ima go all out. 8-9 classes next semester. i still have to give up a saturday i believe to take the damn assessment test. ugh I guess i wish redweek.com would give me a vacation that would be uber awesome. i got their comment today that i DO need a vacation and i do. that would be awesome going on a vacation with someone :) i def really need it.

if you’re wondering how things with me and megelle are there wonderful :) we’ve had our share of problems and arguments but there perfect as can be right now :)

He’s my Wall-e and I’m his Eve-a <3

These 96 days have been pretty bomb :) i can’t really wait what the future has in store for us (me and megelle). i know everything is going to turn out great :) sorry too that i haven’t kept up with this so much has been going on. From going to the espys to xgames to powerhouse to going to concerts. This summer has been pretty unbelievable. I’m glad I chose him and I’m glad that he’s all mine and I’m all his :) I couldn’t ask for a better boyfriend :)

-I love you babii 4 ever and ever :)

Everywhere I’m looking now I’m surrounded by your embrace Baby I can see your halo You know you’re my saving grace You’re everything I need and more It’s written all over your face Baby I can feel your halo Pray it won’t fade away I can feel your halo halo halo

man.. past two night have been AMAZING. mannn megelle is something else… he makes me smile like crazy with text messages… i cannot wait to see him wednesday…i know when ill see him i know that ima prolly run up to him n hug him n kiss him. he makes me so happy. i dunno what it is but theres something about him that makes me go crazy about him. yeah he has a past (hes gone to jail n done other shit..) but it doesnt matter…hes changed i can see that.. crazy thing is that he accepts me, accepts my past, accepts everything bout me and i accept him, accept his past, and accept everything bout him. he’s just great. he makes me really happy. i texted him last night till 6:30 AM. but yeah hes amazingggg!! <3 hehe.

Since You’ve Been Gone I’ve Been Standing Tall Without You….

so last night was really memorable for me… Darnell texted me saying he needed me again. (he got a ticket wants me to help him out if he doesnt pay it by this week hes going to have a warrant). He then went on with his whole calling me “hun” and then i was like oh mann.. here we go…. and yeah it was 1AM and he wanted to see me. i was like in my head nothing good can come out of it. I mean i know if i went and saw him i would be happy and then something would go down and then start back to square 1. I actually turned him down.. i was surprised i did… usually i’m like OKAY get my ass ready n stuff but this time I dunno i felt like i wasn’t being fair to megelle. I know i’m not his girlfriend but i wouldnt want him talking to some other girl and doing shit with her. I dunno. I kinda regret not seeing darnell in a way because I think i just needed to talk to him about it but then again i know if i had gone then I would of done something with him like always… I’m really proud of myself in a way…

Also, megelle told me he liked me and wanted to be my boyfriend… and wanted us to work out just that he wanted to see me more and see things where they would go.. he told me “it would be an honor to your B/F…” I honestly think hes amazing as fuck. I know hes had a BAD past a really bad one. I usually wouldnt consider a guy if he had a past like him but he makes up for it i know that hes changed. he shows me that and I love it.

So I leave you with this…

Since you’ve been gone I’ve been standing tall without you…

Sometimes Love Comes Around And It Knocks You Down Just Get Back Up When It Knocks You Down

okay before i rant on my first post. you need to know these people so you wont get confused.

James-my stupid ass ex

Darnell-the guy i had a major crush for about ever lol

Megelle-the new guy i totally fell for

okay well since basically after James and I broke up I’ve had major feelings toward Darnell. I felt like I proven myself because basically thats what he wanted me to do. I really thought like things were progressing. Little did I know not really. I mean James didn’t want me to be with him that made it more that I wanted to be with him. Darnell and me really havent seen each other in sometime. I really want to be his gurl but I think to be honest sometimes he uses me without him actually knowing.. James did for some time come back into my life as my friend but it seem he dont want me happy. he posts stupid shit comments on my myspace it’s like dude its called MY-SPACE not JAMES SPACE. he ended up blocking me and i was fine with it.  I see him and his gf all the time walking on the weekends. My mom saw her and she said that his gf looked preggo and ugly as fuck, and HUGE. lol so yeah anyways now like I met this new guy named Megelle and wow… this boy makes me so happy. we’ve been texting non stop for like 4 days now. i get to see him wednesday night. I really want to be his girlfriend. He lives in woodland hills thats like what an hour away with traffic?. I really don’t mind that he lives that far I dont mind driving all the way up there! He calls me beautiful and I love it. I love everything about him. plus he’s hella cute <3 I really want things to work out between me and him. He makes me feel so great like butterflies in my stomach. its such a good feeling. he makes me smile just by texting like i feel seriously i’m head over heels for this guy.<3 he makes my silly crush over darnell look so stupid, seriously. i feel like hes WAY better than darnell.

i can see myself in the future loving megelle… and its a great feeling because I thought I would never find love again….